My #9 Year

Did you realize this is a number 9 year? (2+0+1+6 = 9) A number nine year typically symbolizes a period of letting go. Whether it’s releasing people, habits or situations, and whether you like it or not, this is a time when the urge is strong to free yourself.

My letting go began last July when my dad died. I had let go of him in some ways, but you know, death requires you to fully let go of someone’s physical being, thus stepping into a complete release.

Done.

Then, I started a new job in August. Being a community college professor is not what I thought I’d be doing with my PhD. Taking this job meant I accepted a path filled with 20 thousand fewer dollars and students who possess a different mind set. There were a lot of tears because letting go is not always easy. However, the next ten months revealed the benefits of this next step. I could’ve never jumped fully into writing, blogging or authoring had I continued to be a professor at a research institution.

Done.

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In March, the unfathomable happened. I had to let go of my dear Rascal. I won’t rehash how difficult it was to put that relationship to rest. I almost settled in a funk about it, until I saw a woodpecker. I choose to believe that bird, with its bright red feathers and focused pecking was behind me on purpose. He urged me not to get caught up in a cycle of sadness. The following week, a hawk flew on top of my building, looked right down into my eyes and reinforced the message. Rascal has moved on. You have to too. Focus on what you’re supposed to be doing.

Done.

Shortly after, I decided to let go of six boxes of books. They had cluttered our dining room for almost a year. It was time for me to give them away. I posted to FB about the release and three colleagues gasped and asked me to send them their way. So I did. I also bought two small bookcases for the ones I deemed important. Whether you subscribe to numerology or not, there’s something about clearing space that allows for more creativity and higher vibration. Those books symbolized twelve years of (outdated) university learning. It was time to let it go.

Done.

img_0864Then, I decided this was the year that I needed to cut my hair. I went natural in 2010. And I hadn’t cut it since. When I washed my hair, it stretched near my butt! That’s too much hair. It weighed me down. I was tired of doing twist-outs twice a week. It was time to let it go. My daughters begged me not to cut it. They disapproved of any style I showed them. The thing about liberation is once you feel it’s necessary, you have to follow your gut and ignore naysayers, even if they are family. So, I scheduled an appointment and cut my hair. Whew! I felt free.

Done.

I thought I was done letting people and situations go, but there was more. For the past three years, I’ve grown on purpose. I’ve become a more conscious version of myself. Some of it I’ve written about here: less judgment, more mindfulness. Some friends have rolled with me during this transition. And some have resisted the new me. While I haven’t released any friendships, per se, I have let go of certain aspects of the friendships that previously existed. Meaning, we can remain friends, but maybe our conversations are limited. Trust me. It’s challenging. But it’s okay.

Done.

Have you released anyone or anything this year? If so, then tell me about it. Do you believe in numerology? Let’s talk about that too.

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76 thoughts on “My #9 Year

    1. Thanks! So glad you are! That means I don’t have to convince you that it’s okay lol. It is a universal year 1, and so my personal year is actually ahead 1. So last year was really my 1, but it felt more like a 9. I suppose these things probably overlap. You might be letting go and also starting new things. I’m going to stop now because I sound like a tarot card reader 😉

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  1. Kathy I love this post as it spoke quite loudly to me. “The thing about liberation is once you feel it’s necessary, you have to follow your gut and ignore naysayers” is so true. Even though I have a ways to go yet I can see an end in sight and the beauty of it is making the decision to rid myself of stuff has eased the burden of thinking I ‘need’ something vs wanting. I know I can do more with less and am excited at the prospect of much needed inner peace.

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    1. You found it! Thanks for reading Stephanae! Yes, we all have to let go at some point, sometimes it’s clothes, and other times it’s whole people and mindsets lol Whatever it is though, it always feels good to just detach from that thing and move on.

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  2. This post is the truth! I’ve had to let go of some toxic situations and people this year. More like God forced the “letting go” because I probably would have still been at my miserable job. I additionally let go of my locs that I’d grown for approx 5 years. It was time, but most importantly, I’m letting go of pessimistic thinking and old pain. It serves no good to anyone or my spirit. I do research numerology and my life path number is, I think 9.. or that might be someone else number I’ve been reading about. Congratulations on letting go of the necessary things needed for your growth. Maybe I should congratulate myself too. Congrats to us!!! Better things ahead!! AND I’m feeling the new hair cut. It looks beautiful on you!! Be Blessed and Truly Happy!!

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  3. Yes I do believe in numerology, my life number is an 8 😉
    And yes, for me it was also a year of letting go…my dearest girlfriend (dog), the house which I thought was the one we would settle down for ever, but was to dark and moist (best decision ever, since we know life in our dream-house, never thought we would be able to do that already), decided to cut of all connection with my mother and she will never admit it, but I really believe it’s better for the both of us. Since then I really truly feel free and able to be me (inner child) again. And some other smaller things had to release/let go off.

    Love your haircut and what a brave decision regarding your work.
    I agree with you; follow your instinct, always!
    XxX

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    1. Number 8? I’ll have to take a look. Doggies are always the worst to let go of Glad to see you have the house you LOVE! I’ve recently started treating all people the same, whether they’re related or not. As far as I’m concerned, if you’re not aligned with my core values, then you and I cannot be in relationship. So glad you found that peace! Thanks for the hair compliment!

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  4. Well, I know nothing about numerology, but this year is a letting go year for me too, and it’s showing no sign of stopping. The latest? Friday I’m expecting to lose my job of 8 years and will have to find a new role to transition into by October. I’m glad that 8 months into 2016 you have finally enlightened me to what’s going on so I can let go a little bit. I love this post, and I adore your new hair!

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    1. NOOOO! Oh my goodness J! Has this been devastating for you? I won’t say get over it cause I know that’s not helpful, but I will say for me, the best thing is to lament, and then keep moving forward so that you can step into what’s next. I do hope you’re able to transition into a new role that’s a good fit. Thanks for the post and hair compliment 🙂 Hang in there!

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      1. Ugh. It’s still going on. They decided to delay the reorg and now the rumor-mill is saying it will happen in March. This mess has been going on since November 2015. If I don’t get an ulcer it will be a miracle. This post really helped though. Maybe the change will open up opportunities I can’t realize now, like your job did with you. I can hope, right?

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    1. I think that’s the key Pricilla! Whether we call it numerology or God, eventually, we all have to release what we think is so stressful and simply be. Thanks for stopping by, reading and commenting 🙂

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  5. Great positive outlook. I don’t know much about numerology but when I look back, I’ve been letting go of “something” each passing year. I smiled at your books…I have only have 2 boxes of my favs that I’ve kept and will soon get rid of my old law books…

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  6. Very inspiring and encouraging post, Kathy! Letting go is liberating, because if we don’t we remain stuck and miss out on opportunities and other things to be grateful for.

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  7. I like this post because it marks passages, ticks personal growth things off a list. Sometimes we – or maybe I should speak for myself- sometimes I am so busy rushing to what is next that I fail to acknowledge and absorb milestones of personal growth. Speaking of numerology and the number 9: somewhere I learned that number 9 is – on another side of the “letting go” aspect – the number of completion, meaning that a 9 year is the completion of a cycle of years. If you add the digits of your age that is supposed to be your personal number year. I won’t use my age as an example here – lol! Anyway, enough rambling! CONGRATULATIONS!

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    1. Leslie, I think you’re not the only one who’s too busy to recognize her personal growth. It’s the culture in which we live. And, yes you’re right! Aw c’mon be brave…share that bday…JUST KIDDING! My personal number is 1, which I think is forward movement after you’ve done all the hard work required to bring something to fruition, or something like that lol. Hope you end this year on a positive note.

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      1. Yep. But you can also add the bday month, day and current year to see what the number is for now. So for example, I’m 5/23 but I add 2016, which is how I know it’s a #1 year for me personally.

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      2. So it’s a #5 year for me. What does that mean? I read all the links, but don’t see how to interpret the current year number. I’m totally digging this stuff! Thanks!

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  8. I love your hair cut!!😀😃 I have decided that children are quite conservative when it comes to their parents and really don’t like change – my son was negative when I shortened my long blonde hair. Too much faff and too much like an unwelcome pelt in summertime. Of course, he soon got used to my new style! You have had a lot going on this year but seems you’re coming out the other side. As for the number nine – that’s always been my unlucky number. Didn’t realise the year added up to 9, could explain a lot about the previous six months. The rest of the year looking up so far though! As for letting go – I’m gradually stepping back from a couple o,f what has taken me years to realise, are toxic friendships when all I was getting was heartache and sadness. Feel better for it now…at last…

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    1. Annika, I had NO idea. They really flipped out about it. Don’t tell anyone, but one of them even cried! I think they are used to it now. I’m telling you there’s something about it. Glad to hear the rest of the year is going well. Fingers crossed for continued progress. Kudos to you for liberating yourself!

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  9. Well aren’t you gorgeous? I love long hair but I agree It’s too much sometimes. Something tells me you would be stunning with no hair or better yet a Mohawk…never thought about numerology but I’ve been letting some things go. I know that pain all too well with Rascal as you know. I’m trying girl, really trying in losing Cheesy. Keeping busy helps. You inspire me every single time you post. Hope you know that. Just in case you’ve not heard it lately…you’re fantastic and very proud of you and who you are 💕

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    1. Awww Lennon Carlyle! You’re gonna make me cry tears. Your kind words mean a BUNCH to me! Thanks a million times 😉 On a separate note, it’s funny you mention a Mohawk cause my hubby has been trying to get me to do a FROhawk for years lol Hugs about Mr. Cheese! It takes a minute. Thanks again.

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  10. I love your post, so positive! I to follow the number 9. I have files on this number and its presence throughout history. But I hadn’t realised that 2016 added up to 9. Now I know why so much is changing this year.

    And your haircut looks wonderful… jc

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  11. Your post is inspirational. I could relate about numerology and the letting go of things and people that no longer serve us well. That is what growth is all about, shedding the old, becoming new. I also started my journey to becoming the best version of self possible in 2016. I must say I am really proud of us. I have learned to trust my gut and go for it. My number is 1111 I see it everywhere. I am 3 according to my birth date and name. I enjoyed this post a lot, thanks for sharing.

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  12. I’ve felt a lot of weird urges in 2016 to move more fully into myself, to be more honest about what I like and don’t like, to stay out of other people’s drama, to let go of toxic relationships, to find friends more in line with my interests and values. I could keep pretending and have to cut ties someday, or draw my line in the sand now and let them choose whether to stay or go. The number 9 seems magical, like change or transformation or moving to the next level. Thanks for a great post, you have come a long way, KE! 🙂 PS: love the hair, beauty and simplicity often go hand in hand.

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    1. That’s a great way to explain it, “weird urges.” It does feel a bit like being forced to let go, as if you have no choice in the matter. You’re welcome and thanks for those kind words Joan! I really have come quite a long way into who I believe I’m supposed to be. And thanks for the compliment.

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  13. Thanks for sharing. Yes, letting go is freeing. Some years ago, I let go of some toxic relationships that had held me in knots. Last year, I lost dear friends that moved out of state. Letting go of that loss has been difficult for me. I’m working on it.

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    1. Rosaliene! I was just talking about you to my hubby. We were talking about the climate change document. I agree that letting go can be freeing and difficult. We’re all a work in progress so hang in there.

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  14. SUPER inspiring. I did not realize it was a #9 year! I love the divine number 9. I have definitely let some people go in the same manner you have, and I’m cool with that. There’s a lot of freedom in letting go.

    Thank you for sharing.

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  15. K E what a beautiful, courageous post. This explains a lot of what’s happening for me, thank you for putting it in such clear, practical terms.

    Many blessings to you on your path and your process of letting go. For me, there’s a lot about creating inner and outer space for my heart to reveal itself to me. Blessings 💖

    PS – your hair looks amazing!!

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    1. Thanks Debbie! Yes, it’s like you have permission to let go…I mean you always do, even when it has nothing to do with numerology, but you know what I mean, I hope. You have to make space for blessings, I think. Thanks for the hair compliment!

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  16. Wow, that is a lot of letting go of big stuff! I love this post K E, It’s full of strength, emotion, and honesty that even though we choose to let go of something, it is not without feelings. I don’t much about numerology, but I LOVE fun with number days. In fact, my son is getting married on 1.7.17. I was born on 8.8 and I’ve heard that means something in numerology.

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    1. It really was/is. I mean I know we all look for meaning in whatever we can, but once I found that out, it really helped my perspective. I’m not sure what that means, but I’m sure it’s significant 😉

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